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Dead Instead
03:06
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stationary thoughts within a stationary life
to bleed internally on the outside, remember when i died
trapped behind a corrupt mind i hear it when you cry
obliged to live inside i bleed cloaked blood from my eyes
wind blows, the snow knows, darkest times, my heart shows
frozen, bleeding, oh god i'm seething, constant dreaming of skull teething
iced over 4 leaf clover no luck here scorched by torch blower
my brain is beating, mental retreating, scream for life as yours is receding
Fucked over shit never gets bolder and you'll never see and you'll never be
crying out hopeless addicted and dopeless my mind is the hostess, in me
there is no bliss
I swear i'm getting sick of all this, why worry when things are all shit
I don't know why it is, living to be worthless
freezing cold still no luck no gold
growing old my brain growing mold
conflicting within my soul not sold
change of pace forget what you've been told
lies for masses read through broken glasses
wasting their time in classes and depression
misread mislead it's all the same in my head
wish you were dead instead of number one
It's the Icon of Sin and you'll never win
not you or thousands of men
broken down thrown in the trash bin
the curse that is ever lastin
blastin and slashin those demons im mashin
depression agression i fight for my sanity
im coming down raise my hate for humanity
come to realize i have no integrity
the opposition in my position would still be bitching, I know the mission
now i'm pissin fuck what i'm missin i will not listen
now you know, the shit i blow, the water flows into my submission
deny the truth and live for you do what it takes to get shit done
the water flows into my submission
[its running fast and im fucking fishin]
fuck the truth can't get shit done
[hurdle yourself into the sun]
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slave to the mental concave
reminded of problems i won't leave unscathed
please don't forget that i'm not brave
don't count on me for i cannot save
comin back, too scared to attack
intimidated by what i lack
and i slack off and jack off
dont question what is blacked off
all i ask is for you to back off
propelled by dreams and lack of seams
seamlessly i cling to things
that exist but not for any means
like me and you forced to not see
forced to not see
blinded by thousands of lies
do we even recognize the fucking disguise
we do not respond to the cries and pleas
tossed out on the water to die on the seas
as its seized and we come to climax
all we know will up and turn their i-backs
you learn so slowly but remember that i'm maxed
attempt to overthrow bullshitting as "sly facts"
escape the slavery that you were born in
retain what is real make your way mourn in
blinded by thousands of lies
do we even recognize the fucking disguise
we do not respond to the cries and pleas
tossed out on the water to die on the seas
as its seized and we come to climax
all we know will up and turn their i-backs
you learn so slowly but remember that i'm maxed
attempt to overthrow bullshitting it as "sly facts"
factor in the constant sin
the only true state of mind that i live in
but why live for one when you only do bad
why live at all when you only feel sad
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Collapse and repress into your natural state
anxiety and sobriety on my plate
diving into the terrible fate
mentally i am out of date
emotionally i am a nuclear fallout
i long for you this is my callout
i try and try but my brain is fried
i wont choose to lie or look to the sky
i see with my eye a chance to escape
i need this now more than ever in my shit shape
turn my back and throw out the factors
it's history now and i'm walking backwards
you say to push but i can't move faster
laid out now i'm fucking plastered
(Doomknobs)
phantom on the mattress,
trying to withold testosterone
see it, beat it, free it, eat it,
wake up 10 minutes from home
with a black eye, guy friend tailing me
acting like it's all good
but a look in his eye will leave you relieved,
and he'd stop all the words if he could
Blank and scratchy, write it down
Hot and swimmy, lose the pounds
connected to the stem of all
you've placed upon your crown
This era was before me,
and it dragged me far behind
Its messages are simple,
but they're never very kind
endless cycle
now or never i'm a steaming vessel
glancing back just to bite the gristle
the sight of me lacks the entity
that we need to see that we need to breathe
sleeping dead on an opportune head
look around everyone else has fled
alone and bleeding memory deleting
enemy defeating with a violent beating
dont forget the physical consumption
work hard to feel like your worth somethin
dead end job i dont mean nothin
waste away i dont mean nothin
mental breakdown, i'm fucking irate now
falling apart just to see if i know how
anxious and lowly, i move ever slowly
most say i'm lazy but i'd say i'm lonely
(Doomknobs)
Plastic and I'm loving it
Grin, to the end, of the road, it's so stable
but oh what a mess it would be
if you stood with all those people
Blackout so they'll never know you,
they'll never get your person
and as long as anybody knows it,
they're never certain of anything
or any fucking body
plant the tip in the dirt again
for every god damn hobby
that they made for you, and never me,
but that doesnt stop, the pleasant scene
unravels for the first time
like it always knew it perfectly
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