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I'm still so scared
Of you, and what you said
I'll never move on
But I guess i'll be alright
I'm still waiting
For you to come back
I know you kind've have
But it'll never be the same;
the way things used to be
and i hate that that still bothers me
I'll never be who I was
And i'm kind've proud of that
But i'm sure it won't be long
before I can't say that same thing
I've never been one
to be content with myself
and i may never be
and i'm really really really sorry
(I'm still planning to leave)
So far away
i wish to be
will i ever succeed
I will always be
just under good enough
maybe i'll move up one day
but not in the future, i can see
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The Bedroom Song
01:34
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I sit alone in my room
i'm constantly scared
that everyone i love
doesn't really love me
and that i'm all alone
i need constant reminders
that i'm not completely worthless
I need to feel loved
I know i'm a shitty friend
I can't help that i get anxiety
that i'm afraid
nothing ever feels right
let me feel okay
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i walked by your old house last night
and i acted like i walked you home again
your grandpas truck still
made me so nervous
you talked about
how strict he was
i guess that shouldn't be
on my mind anymore
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I hate almost everything
I can barely stand anything
Seems like everyone is fucked up
Seems like everyone gets fucked up
You change my point of view sometimes
You make me smile, you do sometimes
Wish I could count, the countless times
that i've been lost, in your eyes
one of the biggest, brightest
smiles i've ever seen
I found beauty in a loss for words
a whole countries distance
is worth a life time
I spend so much time
wishing you were here, or i was there
loving someone is a gift
hard to be deserving of
i feel like i'm not worth anything
but i love you, so that's something
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I think way too much
about 2 years ago
sensations of your touch
i wonder if you'll ever know
we had so much fun
i guess i was happy
you told me many things
i hope you know i still love you
i can't
live with my self
i'm a piece of shit
i fuck everything up
everyone probably hates me
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(Forget)
00:18
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I constantly question my
peace of mind
I'm almost entirely sure
everything needs to change
I always fail to understand
what it means to be alive
what it means to feel like i'm
living the life i'm destined to
i'm still wondering what i'm worth
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finally in love
with something that
won't stab me in
my fucking back
am i alone
i'm not alone
are you alone
we are alone
it's easy
to fall in love with
something
that makes you happy
how do
you fall in love with
the thing
you hate the most
(please leave me alone, i need you the most)
i fucking hate myself
i want to kill myself
i'm scared to kill myself
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Let's take a trip down to the thrift store
and sit on the stairs and talk about this
you say scared of losing me
that you can't live if i choose to leave
why do you force me to stay alive
you know i can't if you're by my side
but now you're not and you haven't been
for the most part of the last 2 years
what's on your mind when i come to mind
do you think about the good old times
whispering into a hollow ear
empty and jaded and flooded with fear
i tell you i want to end my life
that i'm not happy with internal strife
constantly wondering what i mean to you
or anyone else, i feel so worn out and used
they all tell me that all they care
and i feel like the end to our friendships are near
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10. |
Grasp
02:24
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Constantly feel like i'm
about to fall apart
at the sight of every
thing that i've ever seen
the portraits of a time
withered away at 9
when you told me that you
knew too much to stay here
and as i watched you go
not from a safe distance
emit a wonderous glow
prove that i'm now alone
entry to lands of de
pression "no you're not alone"
who's to say i'm not alone
when nobody's ever home
consolation
has always been my silver lining
emancipated
from feeling like i need someone
integrity
i wish i could forget your name
forget your name
I can still feel you
I long to feel nothing
your voice lingers
free me from your fingers
grasp
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why do you
always lie to me
i don't understand
what makes you feel
like you can't tell me
the simplest of truths
like you don't really
want to be my friend
i still think you don't care
and you continue to prove
that you really don't
i'm sorry if i'm not good enough
lie to me
keep me in the dark forever
let me believe everything
that you say no matter how untrue
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15. |
14 Going On 19
01:58
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i watched all my friends
grow up and become adults
but i'll be adolescent forever
why can't i live like they do
why?
i'm still thinking about
moving so far away
that no one that i used to talk to
remembers my face
but i know i probably won't
because i'm a lazy fuck up
and no matter what
i'll never grow up
but maybe i'll come to terms
with the fact that i'm alive
that i have to live a life
i can't stay 14 forever
i don't know when that'll be
but hopefully it will be
because i can't do this anymore
feel free to kick me out that door
i know i'll die
all alone in
whoever's house
i pityed into caring about me
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Micah Jordan Henderson, Kentucky
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